I've been thinking a lot about relationships, the obligatory ones and the ones of choice.
Just because we have family does not mean that we have to be at ease around them, or indeed that we have to like them. I detest a lot of my family, always have. I love lots of my family also and get along really well with them.
I have an uneasy relationship with my son. Partly because of his problems but also a lot to do with me.
When he was younger my relationship with his dad was dreadful and I think that coloured how I feel around him. I struggle to relax with him and I feel on edge when he is here. I am fine when I go to visit him or meet up with him, just not when he is in my space.
I get on well with my daughter, there has never been any of the uneasiness with her.
Sometimes I think we are programmed with expectations of what is and isn't right. It is hard to break from this and just be.
My relationship with the Goddess and the God is sometimes uneasy. I am sure that much of that is because of my conditioning. It also has a lot to do with know thyself, I do know myself and that self is a mixture of things.